It was years ago that my husband brought up spanking, he wanted to spank me. I was a little surprised but we tried it anyway. He spanked me, then I spanked him. They were very light playful spankings, we didn’t really know what we were doing.
I wasn’t to thrilled about being spanked. He however kinda liked it and wanted more. I really didn’t care for it at first, I would spank him but only because he asked me and I would do anything for him even if I really didn’t think it would be a positive thing in our relationship.
I would like to think that I’m open minded and non judgmental but because of past experiences with abuse I couldn’t wrap my head around it at first. I always thought of spanking as abuse, so hearing my husband tell me about his interest in spanking kinda shocked me. Due to my feelings about spanking I didn’t really understand why my husband liked it so much. I didn’t understand why for a long time.
After years of long conversations and spankings, I started to understand that the spanking that he wanted was coming from a loving, caring and nurturing place.
I started reading and learning about spanking and being more dominant. At the time in my life wasn’t feeling very confident about myself and I got more and more into spanking mostly because of the confidence I got and while I spanked him. He was going to listen to me which was something I wasn’t getting from other parts of our relationship.
Today I feel that spanking has helped our relationship. I have become more confident in my life and feel better about myself since I started taking spanking more seriously.